woke up from a nightmare. dreamt tt mum has passed on following the death of my dad. which was really more than 5 yrs ago. and i was crying & crying to lawrence. asking him why this is happening to me. and asking him how my life would be if my parents were still ard. i got up from bed, emptied half a bottle of the water my mum had prepared for me by my bedside (everyday w/o fail) & went peepee. passed by e living room and thank heavens, she's at the balcony. reading papers and very much alive. and so i went to sleep again...

(must be the curse of the black pepper potato chips)

anyway, it was only 8am & my sis was already up & dressed. she peered at me with glinting eyes, without her specs. she wanted to borrow my comb. go ahead, take it. and she did. and we chatted a little. i told her tt 5 yrs later, we could buy a flat together (she's 30 this yr). den, she disclosed to me tt she was dating a guy 6 yrs younger than her. tt's like, 1 yr younger than lawrence. damn. do we have a penchant for younger guys or wat?

(though i seriously think tt i still prefer older guys, they give in more. in fact, none of the older guys i had dated in the past has never ordered me out of their sight!)

but but, she was gg kl wif her ex-BF. apparently, they broke up cos he cheated on her. den why still go kl together? i ask. she shrugs. and the younger guy? she knew him from devils bar. tt fucking place. she has the card as well. the whole world has devils card anyway. so why isnt it closing down yet?

anyway, conclusion... i guess we are all disasters in love & rship.