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just got out of my shower. again, dis is the time when im refreshed and my mind is filled up to the brim with countless thots. so mixed up, i feel groggy. why do i always think of all the negative aspects of stuff whenever things seem so fine? am i such a critical person tt noone is worth more than a grain of sand in my eye? that seems to include myself. sometimes, i think i know so much abt myself tt i almost feel proud of myself. sometimes, i feel tt i have achieved so little in life tt i deserve to be slapped a thousand times. what are we made up of? who are we to judge others and who is to judge ourselves? when do we stop whenever things are moving way too fast? are we able to stop or are we just dragging ourselves along so as to go with the flow? so many questions i have inside my heart, but who gives a shit?