there were so many things which i wanted to do for u on ur bday. decorate the place with flowers & balloons, cook up a feast for u, buy a nice pressie for u, spend a romantic time wif u... etc etc... but nothing was done.

i just kept mopping the floor, wiping here & there, scrubbing the windows, wall tiles, trying to vacuum the circulators, etc etc... but my mind was just empty... everyday i wake up feeling lonely, empty. and i lose motivation to do anything meaningful at all.

i slack. i hang my head low. i look forward without seeing anything at all. i have no strong interest in anything, or anyone, not even u. i am sorry. i feel delusional, just like a teenager undergoing a phase of identity crisis in her life.

crap.