just one month into the new year, and i seemed to have grown much older than ever. perhaps not just physically (growing really fat due to deteriorating metabolism rate), but more imptly, my way of thinking. too many obstacles in life really force pp to grow up, and it's not exactly the wonderful feeling afterall.

to all my dear friends out there, including crystallis (perhaps u shld give me ur name & i should just remember who u r) and qiao who left comments in my blog to encourage me. your moral support is seriously greatly appreciated. gerald, i dun wanna call u just when i'm down k. im sure u noe what i mean. but no, i wun be breaking up wif law. 5 mths is not exactly a great deal, but it's a rship which i treasure the most (so far, haha).

i remember the times when i was much younger, i was always wondering: "why is he liddat? why did he do that to me?" etc etc. never did i understand that the essence of life, and love, is actually to give a lot, but expect nothing. frankly speaking, this is totally impossible. but if you try hard enuff to achieve as close as possible to this scenario, you'd find great happiness within yourself. why? simply bcos pp have feelings & many a times, they do reciprocate. so when u receive a nice reward in return, like a surprise!

today, colleagues & i had lunch at lau pa sat again (lunch kakis anyone?) colleague was saying tt she felt terrible cos her BF didn't know how to rank her between his family & friends. i told her tt it's always unfair for them to prioritise any one of the above, bcos he had, afterall, been through thick and thin wif his family & friends, and is most likely gonna rank her on the same level as them. trying to squeeze them for an answer is generally impossible. but, i told her, look at his actions and what he had done for her. isn't it apparent tt he had actually given her much more time, effort and even money than anyone else? they'd never admit tt u r more impt bcos they dunwan to appear biased. but fact it, we are really important. and then she recalled the times when it was raining cats & dogs, and she really had to go back home. her Bf was thoroughly drenched cos he insisted that she wear the raincoat and pants. now, isn't tt awefully sweet?

btw, i've moved back home to stay wif the monster and monster's mom. i reckoned tt it'd be best tt i minimize contact wif law's family. though it's slightly inconvenient now tt he has to send me back home everytime we go out (luckily he stays only 5 stations away from me), we now have more personal space for ourselves. and law is really wonderful. he came to visit me twice yesterday (once b4 his RT & again after his RT). even though it's just a simple gesture, i really am very touched.

and never estimate the three words "i love you". the 3 words help to resolve matters more easily & saves so much time. i'm sure jack neo wld agree to that, cos he is not stupid too.