still gloomy

tmr is our ROM anniversary & i still dunno whether my leave will be approved or not. i really wish to spend some time with my hubby, be it at home, at the beach, or go patoh like old times. we haven't really been doing tt as weekends are always so crowded, it just drives off any mood to enjoy & have fun. toopid holiday inn batam didnt get back to me whether 26-27 jan accomodation for e spa retreat is still available; so i went ahead to sign up for the workshop "anatomy of peace in families" @ furama riverfront. actually i had wanted to sign up since a mth back, but kept slipping my mind due to spilling workload. anyways i'm quite broke for spa now. CNY coming & we gotta buy ba kwa, goodies, give ang pows etc. cash resources running really low. and dunno whether i will have any bonus or not. it's gonna fund part of our wedding expenses, and if there isnt any bonus, i gotta save real hard gg fwd. life is so tough :(