lousy bday

every year's bday is just lousy. last last yr, had to wait for him till almost 10pm then he finally appear - with a bouquet of flowers. how unoriginal & insincere. last yr, worse. fell super sick & was bedridden for 2 days. and instead of taking care of me, he actually watched TV the whole time. this yr, he promised to go for dinner w me on my bday eve but end up? again appear at almost 10pm - empty handed. i feel so lousy bcos i always have to lie to myself tt he bot me this, bot me tt; but in actual fact is i go shop by myself & claim from him the $$. totally no meaning. and all the promises are always broken. even had to tell him wat i want i.e. bday cake. told him to go order but he never. no cake, no mian xian, no blowing of candles. will it be so upsetting every year?