the fuck game

a year ago...

guy & gal are happily together.

gal goes to auz for studies.

guy starts going out with other gals when she isn't ard.

gal finds out & breaks up with guy.

guy gets heartbroken.

gal gets herself another BF in auz.

guy refuses to give up but but starts to indulge in clubbing, alcohol & sex.

a year later...

gal returns to singapore for a week's holiday.

guy wants her back.

gal wants to break.

guy let her go & be with the guy in auz.

gal says he is free to fuck other gals now.

what's gonna happen one year from now?

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whats up with the world today? why can't pp just treasure their loved ones & stop doing things which will hurt each other? what do we all want at the end of our time? why do pp love? life can be so much simpler. really. imperfect as always. but still wonderful.

the holy grail

my guy has been hooked on dan brown's stuff recently & started to go gaga abt illuminati or sth liddat. so i got dragged to borders on a rainy cool sat b4 we went for 7 swords - trust me, dis show sucks as usual. anywayz, started to delve a lil into books on anti-christianity. okie im not exactly against any religions (as i said b4, i did go temples & churches in e past- when i was really bored -but really, im aethist...or perhaps just agnostic, cos i say OMG every now & den) but dis topic suddenly becomes as refreshing to me as mentos. yeah i wanna get my hands on a bible some day! haha after i finish up my "tue w morrie" & " to kill a mockingbird". damn e fucked up weather! i wanna go tanning at the beach, read my book & play frisbee!

anywayz we met up with j&j for dinner & ktv (despite my cough) & yeah it was fun... and the highlight is that my dear sang really well! gonna make him sing for me more in future..hehe.. gg out wif siok & ah line later...yay!! ;)

顺时针

曲：梁咏琪 | 词：徐世珍 | 编：
淋过雨的空气 疲倦了的伤心
静静收起的伞底 泪的痕迹渐渐退去
我一个人鼓起勇气 跟着时钟一格一格的前进
推开窗等待阳光 等待着清醒

* 我记忆里的童话 已经慢慢的溶化 爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间 曾说过的誓言 你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强 时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风 慢慢顺时针遗忘

我一个人应该可以 想起爱过之前原来的自己
或许那样的天真我已经回不去

也许我懂得寂寞比相爱容易

Repeat *

已经慢慢的溶化 爱不是这样
而你偷走我的时间 曾说过的誓言 你还在乎吗
我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强 时间回不到最开始的地方
只想这样吹着风 慢慢顺时针遗忘

等到明天继续放晴 几乎忘记下过了雨
爱在心底留的签名 总会慢慢退去

sick & angry

here i am blogging again to fill the void in my life.

my throat is darn pain now and my body was burning with rage the whole nite, congruent to how im feeling right now.

work isnt the most wonderful as usual. sometimes i wonder whether im just putting on a smiley facade or whether i twitch my lips just so as to make my own atmosphere better. watever it is, i am still upset with 2 bloody bitches. one of whom actually badmouthed me behind my back saying tt i went for lunch more than an hour, which I DID NOT. i was back on time but came through the front door and was talking to sandy in the washroom. but at least im back ok! she can always say tt she gg for lunch but yak 15 mins at one corner with her buddy b4 finally stepping out! i never timed her b4 so ydy was e first time i did such a despicable thing (at least in my own opinion). she took 1 hour 17 mins. but did i even tell on her? no cos i dunwan to hurt my karma. and also bcos my boss wld most prob be on her side anyway. whats the bloody point?

HARD WORK DOESNT PAY. NETWORKING DOES (which is why im gonna socialise more i dun care!)

the other bitch was actually quite smart. purposely set the photocopier to 10 copies and i had unwittingly ignored to reset and ended up jamming up e whole machine. CAN SOME NIGGER FUCK HER ASS!

anyway i totally SUCK at photocopying. ydy was the 2nd time i actually employed e help of my colleague to zap some materials. how embarassing. they shld just hire some full time photocopy lady to standby the machine or simply upgrade the machine.

what do u take me for?

love

i had proclaimed that love was inexistent.



i guess what i was looking for was eternal love. someone who would never leave.




perhaps he thot the same too.

recent pix

the 16th day...

it's great to finally be able to use my pc without waiting for it to "warm up". yea...past few weeks were horrible. pc starts, and stalls for a gd few mins before i can actually use it. i suppose those viruses take their own sweet time to wake up huh. but it's kinda weird too. suddenly my norton is working. suddenly it doesnt send out silly msgs to my frens in msn. i hope viruses hv expiry dates! and tt's why they've disappeared, and not bcos they've gone into e 2nd stage of attack.

anyway i had an interesting but in a negative sense sms from an old time fren.

1 msg received: tonight where

as usual

reply: dunno leh. you?

no reply

reply again: why no reply?

1 msg received: 1 2 reply tml

ARGH I WANNA STRANGLE HIM!!!

but it does make me think too. have i been too slow in my replies at times tt it makes my frens pissed off too?? damn. time to reflect again.

heck i'm gonna take my shower & do my facial mask now.

oops

IZack says:
no club tonight?

DUN CLICK ON THE BLOODY LINK says:
apparently not

IZack says:
haha
ok..lousy question

DUN CLICK ON THE BLOODY LINK says:
as always

IZack says:
hey....
aiya.. u got a point too
haiz..i sucks,cant carry a conversation
sorry to bored u.

do i always put pp down liddat?? :S

stop

my heart is like in a million pieces now. there seems to be something choking up my throat too. when was the last time i felt like this? damn me. should never have allowed myself to sink in such a vulnerable state. my head is burning and i seem to be seeing bright lights during intervals. i switch off the lights and try to sleep but my mom keeps disturbing me. heck i really can't eat.. i got no appetite and tt's it! stop forcing food down my throat! i shld just stop...stop it.

instinct

my instinct tells me that something is wrong. but i dunno what. damn it!

distorted

just got out of my shower. again, dis is the time when im refreshed and my mind is filled up to the brim with countless thots. so mixed up, i feel groggy. why do i always think of all the negative aspects of stuff whenever things seem so fine? am i such a critical person tt noone is worth more than a grain of sand in my eye? that seems to include myself. sometimes, i think i know so much abt myself tt i almost feel proud of myself. sometimes, i feel tt i have achieved so little in life tt i deserve to be slapped a thousand times. what are we made up of? who are we to judge others and who is to judge ourselves? when do we stop whenever things are moving way too fast? are we able to stop or are we just dragging ourselves along so as to go with the flow? so many questions i have inside my heart, but who gives a shit?

im bored....

1. whose picture is it that you keep on your wallet?
my own...driving license.

2. what time do you go to bed?
usually before 12am on wkdays and 4am on wkends.

3. what was the last thing you did before filling this survey?
replying an sms

4. who's the one you always meet the most?
my boss, for now.

5. who's the person you're gonna call if you need help?
hmm... him.

6. what's on your mind right now?
whats gonna happen tmr??

7. who's number on your speed dials?
noone.

8.with whom do you wanna be to have fun?
him

9. what movie do u wanna watch now?
any horror or farnee show

10. when was the last time you went out?
dis morn...

11. what do you hate the most for now?
my bloody menses!

12. when was the first time you slept alone?
you might as well ask me when was the first time i DIDNT sleep alone!

13. what do you wanna do for now?
retire..as if!

14. what do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?
work

15. fave pet?
snoopy

17. colors that make you happy?
pink

18. most fave thing in your room?
my bed

19. what was the last thing you bought for your room?
my cupboard

20. any instruments in your room?
nope

21. do you cook?
nope

22. miss someone?
yeah

23. plan to buy something?
ipod

24. are you satisfied with your life now?
im easily contented...no??

25.do you like seafood?
yup

26. breakfast or dinner?
breakkie

27. what do you usually eat for breakfast?
egg, cereal, milk

28. did you eat breakfast today?
yup...twice!

29. do you recycle?
nope

30. do you have a laptop?
nope

31. what's your favorite fast food?
used to be mac. but for now... mos? but its not really fast...

32. cats or dogs?
i have more exp with cats

33. salty or sweet?
sweet

34. city or country?
city

35. what's your favorite kind of jeans?
levi's

36. Is kissing normal for your age?
definitely

37. are you athletic?
nope

38. do you swear?
unfortunately yes

39. would you ditch your friends for a date?
once in a while

40. do you have your own cell phone?
yup

41. what do you wear to bed?
the usual

42. ever had a crush on a teacher?
nope

43. coke or pepsi?
coke

44. sugar or spice?
sugar

45. can you use chopsticks?
not really

46. do you like to read for pleasure?
yup

47. do you care about getting good grades?
when i was younger

48. have you ever fallen asleep in class?
of cos

49. get a job or ask your parents for money?
get a job

50. is your dad strict?
no

51. do your parents give you enough privacy?
dunno

52. do your parents trust you?
dunno

53. would you trade places (in life) with your best friends..?
huh?

54. does your best friend get on your nerves?
hmm who's my best fren? oops..

55. do you make friends quickly?
enemies maybe..

56. do you get jealous of your friends?
for?

57. do you tell your mom everything?
of cos not!

58. what do you & our parents fight about the most?
food...and peace!

war of the worlds

just caught the long awaited tom cruise movie and was totally pissed with the lameness of almost every scene, every action, every...watever. but the lil gal is totally CUTE!! looks so much like dakota fanning...so sweet and oh, what big eyes she has! tom cruise, as usual, wun die no matter how tough life gets. luckily i had a most wonderful companion throughout the show... you know who you are ;)

anyway, movies wise, i would recommend other shows like a lot like love, batman returns and even initial D rather than this sci fi flick.

okie.. 5 more days to go... im looking fwd to sunday! hehe.

被爱的女人

1. 曲名：被爱的女人 歌手：李玟 专辑：被爱的女人

在镜子前面
我是个被爱的女人
他就在门外
这个周末我可以依赖在他的胸怀

在情人面前
我还是单身的女人
爱若缺了缘份
我想我只能用情至深但不能太认真

为什麽被爱 有时却觉得悲哀
为什麽我还是害怕一个人醒来
为什麽相爱 日子却仍然空白
为什麽你 走不到我的未来

让爱固定下来 我不会永远青春可爱
我的美丽要你的温柔 帮我保留下来
让爱固定下来 我和你不要不要分开
我不要爱一再一再彩排
我不是每次失恋後 都能重新再来

whats up with e world today?

after a 2 week break, i really dun feel like doing anything much nowadays...started to pick up the papers to read and god... all the depressing news! oh well, the papers in perth feature mainly local what nots and made me wonder why i paid AUD2 for such a thick stack of trash. i mean, don't we all already know that gay marriages are legalised in canada and spain? eh... gerald u wanna migrate there?? hehe. hmm maybe i shld be glad to read such happy news instead of all the brutal killings and raping acts happening ard us. but as much as these articles make my heart grip in horror, i kinda enjoy absorbing the facts and details of such gruesome reports. anyway, same old line: what goes ard comes ard. be careful. you are being watched all the time.