self discipline

Perhaps I shld not blame anyone but myself.
My desire for it has become an obsession.
Nobody ard me dares to tell me tt but they’d know better.
And how much worth is a 20% discount worth actually?
I shldn’t be so easily influenced by sales & empty promises.
I need discipline!
If not for the lack of discipline, I’d be staying comfortably in my own dwelling by now.
Fuck it!
I cant even concentrate on anything now.
Not even surfing or doing sudoku puzzles.
And mind u, I oredi set the level to “easy”.
I need to keep to my budget.
Perhaps I shld be blind.
Blind to all e colors of the society.
They dun mean nothing much when I truly ponder.
Grow up Karen Lim!

nightmares

haven't been taking a gd rest even though nothing much has been happening at work. peak period will be coming soon & i thot it'd be good if i could take a break b4 work piles up to my nose. so i decided to take the day off today. usually i'd wish law could take the day off too so that we can go out & play, but i just feel almost dead. poor law gotta slog like a slave for almost the whole week (with the eating in & working till midnight etc) & who would believe he's working under the organization which is supposed to be protecting the interests of us poor workers?

had 2 horrible dreams just within a couple of hours. in e 1st dream, i was in e midst of my final exams. it was university times, when we had loads of shit to read & math to do. but i had not been consistent in my work & was doomed to flunk. i was quite determined to flunk until i thot of law & how badly hit my salary would be & woke up in a jolt. 12.08pm. time to wake up, take a cool shower & get some food. less carbs, less carbs, i warned myself throughout the meal. had a whole load of vege which filled up half my plate & 4 miserable pork meat balls wif a fried egg. not too bad. i felt full even though i finished less than a fistful of rice. took orange juice wif my collagen stick & went online. talked to jess & estell who are busy at work for a while & back to the bed i hit.

in e 2nd dream, law & i had planned to go for some camping trip (we are still deciding on whether or not to go berkelah falls) & unfortunately, just b4 the trip, i woke up in perspiration and a boiling body. i got up to my legs & looked into the mirror. fucking hell i had got mumps! my cheeks were swollen & i look like a big balloon. i started gulping down ice cool water & recovered. following tt, we got onto the bus & reached a place where there was a ajisen ramen restaurant. i had spotted a big-eyed bitch from my sch last time & was abt to leave when law just queued up behind her & refused to leave. he even sat down beside him & gawd knows what happened next cos again, i woke up with a throbbing head & burning body. luckily i didnt develop mumps or anything.

damn it.

Men Are Just Happier People

Men Are Just Happier People. What do you expect fromsuch simple creatures? Your last name stays put. Thegarage is all yours. Wedding plans take care ofthemselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth.

The world is your urinal. You never have to drive toanother petrol station toilet because this one is just too dirty. You don't have to stop and think of whichway to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress costs £1500. ATux rental is only £100.
People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. The occasional well-rendered belch ispractically expected. New shoes don't cut, blister, ormangle your feet. You have one mood all the time.Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. Youknow stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. Youget extra credit for the slightest act ofthoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, heor she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is £7.00 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never havestrap problems in public. You are unable to seewrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your facestays its original colour.

The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck. You can playwith toys all your life. Your belly usually hides yourbig hips. You need only one wallet and one pair ofshoes. You want only one colour for all seasons. Youcan wear shorts no matter how your legs look! You can "do" your nails with a penknife. You have freedom ofchoice concerning growing a moustache.
You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives onDecember 24 in 25 minutes. You don't freak out whenyou go to a party and see another man wearing the same shirt, instead you become buddies.

No WONDER men are happier...

brokeback mountain

date: 28th Feb 2006
time: 6.45pm +++
location: GV plaza singapura
kaki: siok
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the movie

a beautiful love story.

beautiful cos it started unexpectedly.

one tt is not based on first impressions.

a relationship spurred by friendship and climatal situations.

unconventional? or just yet to be deemed possible by people?

a bond that is stronger than kinship.

love is really just between two individuals.

be brave to embrace what's true to your heart or regret it for eternity.

a love so true it hurts.

it hurts cos it's a beautiful love story.

one that has no ending.

no more "happily ever after".